these words change me so much :) if this kind of thing really happen to me..... honestly, i wouldnt have anything tomorrow. i would be so poor, i might be alone, and i might be dead. it explains all, i couldnt even say anything._. to be honest, i was sitting on my chair and thinking about what should i write for about 30 minutes and i still didnt get anything. i just........ you know i think a lot of things sometimes i overthink but when it comes the time for me to speak all those thoughts just flew away i dont know where. see? this topic kinda out of its way. i just want to thank God for everything i have, Alhamdulillah. because as His creature i have many disabilities, i cant mention all the things i have. im thankful for every breath you gave me, im thankful for these family of mine, im thankful for everyone i have today, im thankful for all He gave to me, im thankful for all His uncountable blessings, for the good things and the bad things, but everything is good i mean even sometimes it feels bad i know this is the best thing i could have. I'll tell you an example, months ago, i never planned to go to this school (SMAN 3 BOGOR). Never. Ever. Ever. i never thought that even for a second. i was planning to go to depok. this is the reason that i never told anybody... this is my big secret (not a secret anymore, i mean why the hell am i telling you a big secret. you dont even know me.-.) the reason why am i here because a friend of mine was going to this school, so... i dont know if you ask me why or how did i get into this school._. you know it feels like i just wrote my name right there on the list, i came to see my new school, and voila here i am. i wasnt even trying. i was on a trip back home from manado one day before the results announced. no tension, not much happiness, and my friend didnt even signed here. then i was being tested for placement, and the next thing i knew for sure, i was sitting on X mia 6 class listening to my economy teacher. i wasnt surprised a little bit... much things i want to say but... on my first day here it felt pretty hard. i didnt know anyone. but knowing many of my friends were crying because they didnt get into here....... i finally felt so blessed :) thank God.. i cant even explain how thankful am i. its just one tiny blessing He gave me. kinda out of the topic._. the thing is you have to be grateful for everything you have and you dont have. because as a human, we are stupid and reckless. we dont really know whats best for us. so just believe in God. He gives you the very very best of everything :)
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